if you ever… and if you are able… to notice every one positive side, you might be able to appreciate who they are.

there are many beautiful sides of them that you might not notice because of other people opinion about them.

you are able to look through them in every relationship you have or just a stranger that you observe.

it is considered as one of the most valuable gift that we have to see beautiful thing in the world.

this is why old men always said, “open your eye bigger enough“.

or many will say, “sometime, the most beautiful stone was the nearest one to us“.

sometime we just do not notice the one that around us.

You should have more smile than you shouldn’t.

because you look so tense.. a little bit more relax will do to enjoy your self and people around you.

beside, smile could bring happiness and welcome plus a friendliness and warm to people surround you.

you will look more beau____ of course.

hehe.. cheers..

Nobody can go back and Start a new beginning, but Anyone can start today and make a new ending

by Unknown

seperti ingin berlari jauh ke pantai..
seperti ingin secepatnya sampai disana..
setiap langkah seakan terlalu dalam..
setiap langkah selalu terasa lebih berat..

sesak napas terasa, walau udara begitu segar disepanjang jalan..
tapi hanya angin dingin yang menusuk..
baju setebal apapun tak mampu menghangatkan..

ketika satu panah juga mulai lepas..
papan target menjadi lebih renta..
seberapa dalam tarikkan busurku sebelum?
apakah sama cepatnya?

aku ingin berteriak di pantai sana..
aku ingin secepatnya berada disana..
melepaskan semua pikiran hati..
tidak peduli apakah laut bisa mengerti..

lelah rasanya..
bukan saja kakiku, tapi juga isi pikiranku..
kadang… kegelisahan datang seenaknya saja..
tanpa memikirkan apakah itu adil..

i have been living for 30 years of my life. lets say i will live for another 30 more years or 40 more with a 10 years addition at the end of it, i will to spend more time with my wife, a retirement life. by the time (60 years old), i expect my children has grown up to stand alone.

i want to do what i love to do.

i wanted to open business instead of working with people. i want to have something to stand on, something i love to do and something i really enjoy doing it.

there is one most important thing, i need to settle down my feeling, place it on the right one and let it grow from there.

another one is keep my self up, i want to be a change person, a different attitude and a self control. it really difficult when feeling is touched. it brushes out your mind to think logically and let the moment to take place, it control almost everything, from your mood, motivation, self discipline, focus and even it mess up your plans.

last one is to keep a good work in relationship at home or social life outside. give will be more a significant area i need to improve with.

Lets Rock & Roll!

“Yes, Virginia, there is a Santa Claus.” But there almost wasn’t.

The famous line was penned part of a real 1897 New York Sun editorial written in response to the letter of a curious 8-year-old girl.

Virginia O’Hanlon wrote to the Sun in September of that year in anticipation of the gifts she would receive that Christmas. The letter implored, “Please tell me the truth. Is there a Santa Claus?” But it was apparently misplaced or ignored for several weeks, according to research done by Joseph Campbell, a journalism professor at American University.

When the letter came to the paper’s attention again, a quick response was written by Francis P. Church:

“Yes, Virginia, there is a Santa Claus . He exists as certainly as love and generosity and devotion exist, and you know that they abound and give to your life its highest beauty and joy. Alas! How dreary would be the world if there were no Santa Claus. It would be as dreary as if there were no Virginias.”

Readers were thrilled with the editorial and repeatedly asked the paper to reprint it each year, which the paper only did sporadically until the 1920s, when it was finally an annual feature until the paper folded in 1950.

everyone is a Santa to other. I was encouraged by the attitude of brothers and sisters. they buy many gifts to bless other in this joyful occasion. they simply put a cheerful smile in every time gift is given.

such as strong bonding is grown. i feel the relationship is a lot better improved this year. even it was a new structure began about 6 months ago, even some still can not let go previous group. but a new dynamic group is endorsed to accept a gratitude too.

changes always difficult to accept but everyone is losing out that pride a little bit more humble and receptive in this occasion. its a great christmas gift.

a card is written to say a Thank You and to say Encouraging Words,
written heartly to say a Blessing words,
meant to say how you have been making an impact,
to say always have Faith and continue to Serve and Grow in Him.

Its one of the best many paragraphs you ever read, it is kind of a heart warming essay by them. Thank You, Santas!

Felices Fiestas, Happy Holiday, Joyeuses Fetes!

Quitting when you’re in the wrong place is as important to success as pushing ahead when you’re on the right track.

By unknown

i did see at glance the clip showing how they maintain all the trains and tracks few months back on tv. from cleaning the tracks, checking on breaking system or just to polish the wheels.

then i went down to the platform, first train came, everybody rush in and i decided to wait for next one, but this train door was not closing for few minutes. unusual thing happen at this time of rush hour.

come across my mind that the train will have a problem like few days ago then suddenly i was thinking to cut my hair, but decided to give a train another chance.

then come next train, i went in and get into the other side of door. just few second into the train, a speaker announces that it will be delayed. the train was packed with many people. i waited for awhile.

tik… tik.. tok..! an minutes i guess.

i called my mom, whether she has an dinner already or cook at home. she said, “she did not cook but going to have dinner with my sis”. and we chat for awhile. “I was in the train on the way home”, i said. that end our conversation, took around 30 to 45 seconds.

tik.. tok… tik.. tok.. another minutes of waiting.

suddenly i was afraid of breathless, no enough oxygen to take. i probably have an anxiety of a small room.

there was a time when i was exactly on the same position, the other side of open door. in one station, everybody was rushing-in like no care and i was kind of try to protect my self to stretch my hand to give me a space between me and other. in seconds the door suppose to close but it did not, i was decisive enough to get out of that train.

“excuse me.. can you give a way.. excuse me”.. i was so relieved when i was out.

a fun experience, i went to MTV World Stage concerts in Malaysia with friends and we got special tickets, it was in first row which was really close to the bands, we stood up, jumped and shouted all night long, thats what they expected as a front row crowd, everybody.!! make a noise!!.

it was fun and i was not afraid of losing my breath on packed crowd because they limit the crowd and there was a space between crowd and the fence, and the fence with other crowd at the second row. secure enough so they will not climb across and make a mess. beside there were security personals so i did not need to check the fence.

i was really thinking about all bad possibilities there. uncontrolled crowd, no security personal and weak fences between crowd will probably need to avoid for me. i was afraid if they climb over and that row will be packed and i will probably will stuck in the center of the crowd with lack of oxygen

back to this night, i decided to get out of train and cut my hair and taking bus back home.

i am glad with my decision. three tasks were done indirectly in this single event.
first// tidy up my hair earlier than expected
second//my decision making is improved in speed and satisfaction.
third// prevent my self stuck in an uneasy situation.

i walked down this morning in park near my house, accompany my mom. i told her last night, “Lets have a walk tomorrow morning“. but she woke me up this morning as i was still so sleepy. i brushed my teeth and washed my face, change cloth and go.

its always nice to have a walk in the morning, breath a fresh air & feel a warm morning sun. i have not done this for quiet sometimes.

as i walked i was thinking about what are things i have compromise in my health department.

i think i have compromised many things, taking Just any food with any portion (sometime even bigger than what i need), didn’t have a good rest (always sleep late) and my exercise regime is on and off ( i use to jog, once a week)

past few months i have been hit with many unwanted sicks, pains, tiredness and headaches sometimes. i have taken many of my medical leave.

almost 5 years ago when i started to join in this company (February after chinese new year). for over two years plus i never took any single medical leave. only when i feel tired, i took leave to rest. never really sick i guess, what a record!

these things give me an idea about next year resolution. give me an idea to get back in shape and also about things i want to do next year (2012 +) but i would not want to postponed it till next year. this morning was the start of these un-alignments. health department have not been doing really good recently, for the pass few months obviously (this year).

i demanded them to send a complaint letter to me to aligned what i just take everything for granted, i am not young as 20 years old, even all excitements inside is still there but body is catching up. still strong but not as strong as 10 years ago.

i expect & will do.

\ should not eat too much! take just a nice portion and be reminded about your tummy. it is not for the physical appearance but for health.

\ rest well, have a good and early sleep time, consistency in quality and hours of rest. too much rest is doing no good for your body too. just enough is good. somehow your body will know it.

\ food to consumed. eat anything once a week but control many days in a week with a balance portion, add some fruits.

\ excise routine. it has to be once a week or more, for jogging, get the salty sweat out of your body and get refresh of your mind. thats gonna help in your concentration.

Take care of your body while you are young as it will take care of you when you are old

that will be my motivation.